Agnès Varda
Ma Chérie Agnès Varda,
I ached for your presence, unknowingly, through tedious film history courses deliberately focused on men. I knew that something, someone, remained absent. When finally I discovered you for the first time I saw myself speaking back to me from the screen. I felt whole, connected to the womb of my own inheritance as a filmmaker.
Seeing through your photographic eye the subtle, truthful moments between people convinced me that film acting must never just play pretend. You bring a documentarian’s observant curiosity to every narrative moment, as in your first feature Le Pointe Courte. Laced with feminist activism, your films address the very nature of the woman’s experience - showcased by the feminine role in Le Bonheur and in defiance of it in Vagabond.
Life calls to me through your lens. I drink in every frame, be it the tree reborn out your window in Agnes Varda: From Here to There or the uprising of the beautiful Black Panthers (aka Huey). You love life’s magic and mysteries. In Cleo from 5 to 7 when Corinne Marchand scoops up the little black kitten in her all-white apartment. Or in Le petit amour (aka Kung Fu Master!) as Jane Birkin stares blankly into the ocean of her own existence. Oh, and the mirrors! Such relief! A momentary reflection on inner life captured so simply that we can see into the conversations we have with ourselves. You even turn the mirror inward, revealing, questioning, inspecting the woman behind the camera and the very nature of cinema itself in The Beaches of Agnes. You push boundaries you would never admit exist, pressing your camera right to the heart of your own humanity. I strive to live! To create living art as present and vibrant as your own. No matter what they teach, who they credit, you’ll forever remain the matriarch of my cinematic history, the true grandmother of La Nouvelle Vague.
Sincèrement Votre,